Second Verse, Same as the First!

When I had Burkley, I thought there was no love a mother could have that is anything like the love for her first child. When I saw other moms with their babes, I thought to myself how that mom was feeling just what I was feeling: Sheer and utter love and joy for her child! When I saw moms with an older kid and a baby, I felt bad for the baby, thinking, "Aww, poor second child! That mom must love the first one the most!" I mean, after all, we know our firstborns the longest, right? And our firstborn is the one who makes us mothers, yes? And we learn and grow so much together, us moms and our firstborns. Being the first child my mom raised, I somewhat assumed I ranked pretty high on her list of awesome people ;) but she had always assured us that she loved us all the same.

When I was pregnant with Cadriel, I wondered if I would love him (or her, we didn't the gender) as much as I loved Burkley. I certainly loved the baby growing in me, but I often told Marcus that I thought I loved this baby just because I know how awesome Burkley is, so I know what's to come for this child (read: he or she would also be awesome).

But!! Guess what!!?? I do love this baby! I love him just like I loved my first little Burkley-baby! I adore him, in fact! He is an amazing gift from God who brings me immense joy a zillion times a day. I can't believe I never knew subsequent kids were loved like first kids. I know that sounds terrible, and I'm sorry to all the second, third, and so-on kids out there who might be offended by that! I was so mistaken. And if you second-borns, (or third, or whatever) think you aren't as loved as your older siblings, you ARE! Mamas really do love their kids the same (maybe not in the same ways, for the same reasons or the same at all the same times, we are human afterall), but I certainly know that I do not love one of my boys more than the other.

This baby is simply phenomenal!