Every morning I wake up and think, "Oh! Wow, I didn't go into labor during the night!" Now at almost 38 weeks, I'm really in shock that I am still pregnant. I keep telling myself it really can only be a couple more weeks, so no need to get annoyed. There are times during my days, however, where I certainly am "ready" to "be done," as they say. But still, Baby C will come when he/she is good and ready, I trust in that.
I've had some thoughts about having a baby that is bigger than Burkley was, but I've chosen not to dwell on them. As my doula reminds me, this baby will not be "huge" (as I keep saying), but rather, will be "full term." That's the difference! My body can do it!
In these final days I've been having more dreams about the birth...all of them bad. :( In each dream I am somehow knocked out unconscious and I miss the whole thing. I know this stems from my fear of not being PRESENT and not being IN CONTROL of this birth and of decisions being made for me. Also, in each dream, the baby is a boy. On that note, however, I was just telling Marcus last night that the curiosity of this baby's sex is still not really killing me like I thought it would. Like, I still really don't care! I do think it is a boy, but I guess I only think that since it's all I've ever had! I am definitely curious, but not in they way I thought I'd be dying to know.
Burkley is getting excited for the baby's arrival too and has been asking a lot of questions and reminding me that when the baby is born, baby will be HUNGRY. He tells me that quite frequently. He asks me "What's in your milmies, Mommy? Milk in there?" and pats my shirt. I think he is confused and/or curious because of how often he's seen my bestie nurse her littlest with the SNS. My mom also has a teeny newborn foster baby whom he sees bottle-fed often. So, we've had lots of talks about how the baby will be nursing frequently. He also excitedly helped do some decorating in prep for Baby C by putting a "C" on the wall next to his "B" and things like that. I know the transition will have it's challenges, but it's nice to see him excited to meet our baby soon.
Did you do anything particularly special in your last days of pregnancy other than just wait around?
I've had some thoughts about having a baby that is bigger than Burkley was, but I've chosen not to dwell on them. As my doula reminds me, this baby will not be "huge" (as I keep saying), but rather, will be "full term." That's the difference! My body can do it!
In these final days I've been having more dreams about the birth...all of them bad. :( In each dream I am somehow knocked out unconscious and I miss the whole thing. I know this stems from my fear of not being PRESENT and not being IN CONTROL of this birth and of decisions being made for me. Also, in each dream, the baby is a boy. On that note, however, I was just telling Marcus last night that the curiosity of this baby's sex is still not really killing me like I thought it would. Like, I still really don't care! I do think it is a boy, but I guess I only think that since it's all I've ever had! I am definitely curious, but not in they way I thought I'd be dying to know.
Burkley is getting excited for the baby's arrival too and has been asking a lot of questions and reminding me that when the baby is born, baby will be HUNGRY. He tells me that quite frequently. He asks me "What's in your milmies, Mommy? Milk in there?" and pats my shirt. I think he is confused and/or curious because of how often he's seen my bestie nurse her littlest with the SNS. My mom also has a teeny newborn foster baby whom he sees bottle-fed often. So, we've had lots of talks about how the baby will be nursing frequently. He also excitedly helped do some decorating in prep for Baby C by putting a "C" on the wall next to his "B" and things like that. I know the transition will have it's challenges, but it's nice to see him excited to meet our baby soon.
Did you do anything particularly special in your last days of pregnancy other than just wait around?
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